Betcha you never knew that...

[~*Rach*~]

I am so sorry about your computer. I know exactly how you feel.

That's awesome!!!

And thank you!! The other one is that Trans Siberian Orchestra group. They do a spring tour now so it's really exciting.

That's great!! Good job, Mary!

Betcha never knew that I have absolutely NO idea what I got myself into. Okay so get ready for this. I was taking my shower three nights ago and when I got out and was putting lotion on, I heard a sound from my computer that meant I had gotten an email. I wasn't bothered by it. The only emails I ever get are junk so I took my time getting dressed and ready. I check and it's from Kris. I hate to sound like a stupid teenage girl, but I freaked out. xD Just to know he was thinking about me and chose to talk to me out of his 580 friends was crazy. We talked for a little bit back and forth on Facebook(yes, I finally got one)that night and then just kinda stopped. The next day I didn't hear anything from him and then the day after that(which was yesterday)he messaged me again in the morning. We talked for hours. I think I've finally convinced him to start coming to the First Tee sessions again. I think he really likes me though. I mean that's awesome and all because I really like him, but I am, in no way, ready for a relationship. At all.
Last night I realized I had a text message from earlier in the morning from some unknown number so I asked who it was and it was him. We texted until it was really late. I don't know what to do though, you guys. I'm going to see him on Saturday(he said he'd be there for the First Tee)and I'm like completely nervous to face him. You know, I would love nothing more than to have him as a first boyfriend because he really is the nicest guy and I really do like him, but the thought of having a relationship scares me to no end and I don't think all of me is ready for something like that. I just don't know. So if you guys have any advice, I'd really, really appreciate it. And I'll keep you updated with what all happens.

[pony-horse]

OH MY GOODNESS RACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dude, it's ok if uou go all teenage girl, you sorta are one but oh my goodness !!!!!! THIS IS SO FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!! and dude, don't even worry about all the not-readiness and all that poop. it's not like you guys are dating right now. just have fun right now, and just keep hanging out and you'll get more comfortable with the idea, and then maybe you'll date. who knows. my advice - being the insightful person that i am - is just go with it, have fun, and don't get ahead of yourself. he likes you - GREAT! you like him - FANTASTIC! you'll see him saturday - PHENOMENAL! just look super duper awesome (but don't go all decked out, we don't want to look desperate now ) and just go with it. KEEP US UPDATED!!!!!!!!!

bunkt i'm super sick and stayed home. praying that i won't be sick for mexico :/

[~*Rach*~]

You're right. I shouldn't be freaking out about nothing. I keep over thinking things and all it's doing is making me even more nervous, which I shouldn't be. So I'll stop. Thank you, Mary. I'll just go with the flow. Whatever happens, will happen. Darling, I refuse to dress up for a boy at a golf course. xD I'll wear my usual shorts, t-shirt, hair in a ponytail, and baseball cap. We've been talking over text these past few days. Nothing too exciting though.

Betcha never knew that I had a golf tournament yesterday and go figure, it was rainy, cold, windy and muddy as heck. I won. I was the best of the worst though so that doesn't say much. I didn't do as good as I wanted to, but I guess under the weather conditions I still did alright. I was with the most awful girls I've ever, in my entire life, played with. They called me rude and were just complete and utter snobs. It was horrific.

[pony-horse]

honey, it's not that you shouldn't be freaking out. we just don't let anyone know about this and i know i can't tell you (in my right mind) not to be nervous, but don't be and texting is pretty darn exciting, at least in my opinion

well, she sounds like a pleasure hope the weather gets better in time for saturday!

bunkt i have ANOTHER science unit test tomorrow. i believe i had one just a week and a half ago!!?!

[~*Rach*~]

It's so hard NOT to be nervous, but you're right. I don't need to be so I shouldn't be. And it is exciting. We've had a few short conversations lately, but nothing special. I'll tell you everything that happens on Saturday.

There was more than one "she". It was three. It was awful. I was about to beat them all on the head with my golf club. And the weather should be perfect for Saturday so I'm really, really happy about that. I miss my kids.

Oh my gosh. That's awful, Mary. GOOD LUCK!! Just think, spring break is almost here!!

Betcha never knew that in about two weeks we're going to Dallas since my dad has a run there and we're going to stay at this hotel place that has these AMAZING indoor water slides. I'm super excited. We've been there once and it was a while ago, but it was a complete blast. I'm hoping to get a new bathing suit for it. It should be a lot of fun though so I'm looking forward to it.

[pony-horse]

well, right now (I think) you're over there golfing to your hearts content with some of the best people in the world you better be enjoying yourself!

and that just got a whole lot worse. one retard is hard enough to deal with, you inspire me that all three survived you!

ohh that sounds like so much fun! i love those indoor water parks!!! have a great time, and good luck with the bathing suit!

it wasn't too bad thanks, though!

bunkt i'm in a REALLY good mood today, for no reason whatsoever

[~*Rach*~]

I did enjoy myself. Very, very, very much. I'm sad it's the last one though. Luckily it starts on April 2nd so it'll be here again before I know it.

Yeah. I barely survived though. One of them quit in the middle though so I was really happy about that. And I made my mom keep me company halfway. I seriously would have gone insane if she hadn't been there for the last half.

Thanks, sweetie! I'm super excited about it. I don't even know if we're going at this point though. I guess I shouldn't get too excited.

I'm really glad you're in a good mood. It makes me happy to know.

Betcha never knew that I made cookies tonight. It was lonely and boring, but worth it.

[pony-horse]

i've been considering making cookies tonight to ... still undecided though

oh, i didn't know that it was the end of the winter leaugue :/ but april 2nd isn't TOO far away!

bunkt yesterday was awesome ! it was mostly an average day, we went to church, afterwards i went home becuase my mom "needed" me for mexico stuff, and hten church again, but there was this huge meeting with all the parents of the church to decide stuff, and so it was a short service and we went to Lilia's (becuase we didn't have a ride home, and these meetings literally go on FOREVER. they were in there for five hours, and then said that they would finish it up later on this week) and we hung out, and it was really fun. And then some of the youth (like, the real one, not my little group) came over becuase Lilia's sister thought that everyone was and made a TON of food, and we hung out and it was pretty darn awesome. and then we slept over which was pretty great AND MEXICO TOMORROW!

[~*Rach*~]

Exactly. April 2nd will be here before I know it and I cannot wait.

That sounds like a complete blast, Mary! I'm so glad you had fun. And I hope you're having an absolute blast in Mexico, sweetie!!!

Betcha never knew that I'm the biggest chicken EVER. Seriously. I can be literally the most outgoing girl ever or a complete chicken. I miss Kris. I truly do. But I have absolutely NO guts to just send him a text message. It's like, what would I say? Not "hey". That's lame. But probably what I should do. But it's just LSDKJFLWIefj. I don't know why I'm being a chicken. I really don't. But I want to talk to him and yeah. 

UPDATE: Okay, so I literally just texted him ten minutes ago and we had a small conversation(nothing wildy exciting), but we might be getting together on Saturday and playing a round of golf. I'm 95% sure we'll be there. I'm hoping it works out though. It would be a ton of fun. I'll keep you updated.

Update 2: So it's Saturday. I texted him yesterday morning saying I'd be at the golf course at 10 if he wanted to join me. He didn't text me until 11:40 that night which pissed me off, but whatever. He said he probably wouldn't be there. We texted a few times more and then he stopped replying. Which pissed me off too. Today was still a ton of fun. I really am the  convenient friend for everyone though. I thought he would be different, but he isn't. I'm just the girl people talk to when they have no one else. It's really okay. I don't care. I had a great day and then next weekend is going to be AMAZING(the indoor slides place)and then the weekend after that is First Tee so I'm really looking forward to the upcoming weeks.

[Alyssa]

Gosh everything is happening that weekend. Half the schools around me are having prom so I know people who are excited for that. My friends are going on a church trip. I have my retreat. Your camp starts. It'll be a good weekend!

Oh Rach. You're so cute. Haha

So it's really good that you had fun anyway and don't care.

BUT.

I know exactly how you feel. Afterthought, background, 2nd thought, back-up. I feel that way all the time. But hun you don't know any of that. How are you and him now? Have you talked? He's a boy....he's a HUMAN. And sometimes we do stupid stuff like not reply or something. Just....don't assume things. It sounds like you 2 could be good friends. Kay?